It’s all good: No News is…News?

I like this blog a lot because it has a nice “tone” — somewhat carefree yet serious and pointed at times as well. There are some thoughtful posts to be read here. This particular post really resonated with me because I’ve come to the conclusion that I am one of the people who fits the following description:

So if you want innovators in your team look for people with some particular bad attitudes — the ones with rebellious, contrary and divergent views. These are people who some might label as troublemakers. They are not negative or cynical — on the contrary they are passionate about their ideas. They do not defer to authority, they are dissatisfied with the status quo, they are impatient for change and they are angry about the obstacles put in their way.

Some who know me will likely laugh at the thought that I’m rebellious. Outwardly I don’t seem rebellious at all. I’ve had several discussions with my boss about this issue. He told me, in effect, to just get used to this reality, to realize that I will likely always be an outsider who doesn’t readily fit in. He told me to accept it. I’ve tried but it still is hard. In fairness to him, he also tells me that he likes that aspect of my personality. He is glad that I try to “push the envelope.” I’ve struggled with feeling content and wonder why I’m the only one — seemingly — who sees the negatives, who isn’t satisfied with the status quo. I wonder sometimes if I’ll ever be satisfied in a particular job situation. It’s what I long for. Maybe if I can someday complete a PhD. in library and information science and then teach at the graduate level, which is my dream, then I will feel more content.