Readers of this blog may have noticed how little I have had to say lately about things relating to libraries. I’ve needed a break. Today is my first day back since December 16 and I am grateful for the amount of time I have off as a faculty member at my institution. However, I must admit to some reluctance to go back to work just yet. I worry about my wife being home with the kids most of the day, without my help. Keegan went back to school today, too. I’m feeling unmotivated to pursue librarian tasks yet. Hopefully that mood will change.

One of the tasks before me in this new year is to finally come to a decision, one way or another, about pursuing a PhD in library and information science. (I’ve considered some alternative areas of study but none really seems to catch my interest and passions the way librarianship does.) My boss strongly encourages me to pursue this and in fact, in order to achieve tenure I will have to pursue a second master’s degree, at least. Other factors that are in favor of doing this are that my institution will provide significant financial support, and they also will provide me with time off.

But am I really capable of doing this? I’m filled with doubt. Am I smart enough, motivated enough, good enough? We’re talking about the world’s worst procrastinator, and one of the worst students around. Plus, how can I devote the necessary focus and energy when I have a young family? I have no desire to sacrifice their needs for this career move. What if I fail? (I’ve failed in so many other areas, professionally.) Ok, ok, I know, I’m supposed to stay POSITIVE this year…